Auto Graph 5

Date: 27-Jan

SHE:

Today he seemed to have lost in thoughts. When he got into the
bus, surprisingly he didn't search for me. He even didn't look
up.

He just went straight to the last seat and started reading a novel. I
tried looking at him once or twice but he didn't lift his head at all. I
think he is hurt, I am feeling sorry, but what can I do? When we got down
at the office gate, I purposefully lingered a bit more at the gates to
give back him a smile, but I couldn't spot him in the crowd. Niru, I am
sorry, please be normal again.

Date: 28-Jan

SHE:

Today I saw him in the food court. He was there with two girls
and was chatting, laughing, cracking jokes. He seemed to enjoy
the company.

Is he also a typical boy who just wants to have as many girls around him
as possible? Is he a typical flirt? Does he want me also to get included
in that group for showcasing?

Probably the two girls were just good friends of him. At least
I hope so. Please god please let those be his sisters or just
friends, nothing else.

Date: 3-Feb

HE:

Since that evening thing has happened, I have left staring at
her. I don't know but some inner voice is telling me to keep
away. I am not a street walking beggar to be treated like
this. She might consider herself whatever she might think of.
She is beautiful, indeed, but that doesn't mean she can insult
me like that. I have sward not to look at her again anymore
and just to avoid her looks.

But I can't stay like this. I just like her and want to be
with her. She has committed a mistake, but wasn't that a bit
natural.

She doesn't like me and doesn't want to encourage my feelings about her.
Simple isn't it? That's it. A complete halt for my feelings and my dreams,
but I don't think I can manage not to have even a look at her.

Will I be able to do it?

There is some saying, 'Oh god, change the situations around me
to favor me. At least give me the strength to change it. If I
can't change it, at least give me the strength to bear it.' Oh
God, please listen to me.

GOD:

You don't remember me when you are happy or contempt, do you?
When there is a problem or a really difficult situation, then you start
remembering me or praising me, don't you? I still won't interfere here.

My world is a complex entity with each and every thing or event properly
planned for some specific future as well as past reason. Why should I
interfere and break the balance of all these systems myself?


Next is Feb 14th... Wait and see... what's going to happen... ;-)